Morning all my Tripawd friends,
Last night, as I took Maggie for another woods trail adventure(of which she handled with style again!) I had emotions come back to me that haven’t arisen it’s ugly head since she was amputated 7 months ago.
As I watched her so easily do her “tripawd trot” and look so beautiful and appear so healthy, albiet on 3 legs, I was very saddened again as to WHY, WHY, WHY did this happen to my girl??? WHY??? Maggie started out as a pup getting very good Wysong kibble, then I gradually added raw meat to her kibble to eventually switching her over to premixes(Honest Kitchen, Urban Wolf, Sojo’s) with raw meat added. She has had nothing but the BEST foods all her life! And to top that off, she has had very few vaccines in her lifetime and never, ever flea/tick preventatives – only natural stuff for those bugs! I have done, what I thought, was the best I could do for her to keep her healthy. But alas, she gets soft tissue sarcoma in her left knee 7 months ago and have to amputate her leg. She has NEVER been overweight, always fit all her life – competing in agility for 8 years. WHY!?!??!?!?!??!
Ugh. Then from being very sad and bawling last nite for a short stint, I then got angry thinking WHY my dog. Why not the neighbor’s dog who has NEVER been well cared for like my dog! WHY!?!? One day, I was trying to convince a co-worker that he should switch his Lab pup over to a better food than Iams and he said why, your dog got cancer…alot of good that good food did. Point taken. Pretty hard to give a “good food speech” when I don’t have good evidence to show for it, huh?!? Maybe I should just feed Walmart brand foods and pump my dogs full of vaccines and chemicals and they’d live a healthy, ripe, old age(with four legs). I know, I’m being stupid saying that but…………
Then the emotions quickly changed to once again, having “happy tears” and a smile on my face for Maggie as she went for a swim, well, swim for her is at least going in up to her belly for sticks 🙂 This was her first time in the water since amputation! I didn’t dare throw the sticks too far…I don’t want her to hurt herself(yes, protective Mother that I am). She LOVED it. I LOVED it. I LOVE her. Yes…I am damn happy she’s still here….but I still wonder what in the world did she do to deserve all this! ? What did I do wrong for her?!?
To end this miserable feeling sorry for my dog blog, here’s a picture of her doing agility 🙂
And a photo of her on her FIRST hot dog roast in the woods – we were celebrating Maggie still being here with us after amputation 🙂
Do other Tripawd pawrents feel like I did last night? Even after so much time has passed after amputation? Am I the only crazy pawrent that still has feelings of what went wrong? What should I have done differently for Maggie to have avoided this happening to her?
I am soooooooooooo happy she’s still here with me but I still have so many questions in my head…that I guess I will never have the answers to…
Tracy