Two years have gone by since I said good bye to my best friend. My SuperStar Maggie. The old saying of ‘it gets easier with time’….well, it still isn’t happening for me. Never will. BEST.DOG.EVER. My best friend…love you Maggie, love you very much..
….I was presented this wall hanging of Maggie this past weekend at a Wag It Games Trial! Every dog that has competed in Wag It Games, that have gone to the Rainbow Bridge, get honored in this fashion. This is sooo special…note the three paws in the corners of the hanging and the heart in the left bottom corner. Maggie was the inspiration to the “Heart Dog Program” in Wag It Games, for disabled dogs. Disabled dogs can compete with exercise modifications for their disabilities….
You will NEVER be forgotten, Maggie, by myself and by MANY others….
“Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones;
And when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace.”
As I was looking at this photo today of you, it just made me think of how I can still feel you…
How I used to hold one of your front paws when you’d sleep..
How you had long toes..
How you had the softest fur on your head..
How you had a thick bushy tail with the end of it broken from birth..
How your fur at your right flank started to get rough feeling as you got sicker with kidney failure..
How loose your skin was at your neck and how thick your fur was on your neck..
How your black spots would get hot in the sun but your white fur wouldn’t…
I can still feel every inch of you, Maggie…I knew every inch of you after all the years we were together..
You allowed me to work on you from massage, to t-touch, to giving IV fluids…never arguing over anything I did to you…to help you…
I’d do it all over again for you Maggie….I miss you so…
One whole year since I put Maggie to rest….it all seems so unreal to me. It’s been such an “odd” year without her. I would say I am NOT back to normal. I am not used to her being gone AT ALL. Will I ever be? I highly doubt it. The saying “time heals all wounds”….not true. Time hasn’t healed my loss of Maggie…
A little picture video I made of Maggie’s incredible life…
And some photo’s tonight, sitting with Maggie, watching the sun go down….
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…of you, last night, Maggie…. ♥
We were at a rally obedience dog trial…you were off in the distance laying down in a field. I was worried about having to take you to the vet to put you to rest due to kidney failure…I talked with my vet at the trial(why was she there?) and she said no worries, that she had something for you and all would be well…..then I remembered, well, I hadn’t had to give you prednisone lately to make you eat…you were eating on your own very well…. I had to tell Gina the good news…
Is this a sign? Some of sort of sign from you? That all is well with you and you are eating and feeling fine?
Crazy dreams….this photo of you from 2007 is similar to what I saw in my dream..bright white coat and glistening in the sun… ♥
Actually that is a silly title…I think of you so often, Maggie. I’m sure you are fully aware of how much I do!
Last weekend, Haley and I went for a walk in the field behind the house for the first time this Spring. Thought of you when we got to “our”(yours and mine!) “Thinking Rock”, as I used to call it. You and I would sit up there on that rock and just overlook the lake and our yard down below.
You loved to walk in the fields…mouse hunting was a great thing to do..
Or just taking in the views….
Miss you soooo much, Maggie…it’s the first Spring without you. Got through the first winter but now emotions are all stirred up yet again with a changing season….
Or was it the same one only seen on three different occasions?
Maggie, I have to tell you, I have seen on three different walks over the
weekend, three squirrels. And they weren’t on their designated “Squirrel Trail”
They were on YOUR trail! I think they know you aren’t around anymore
to keep them off YOUR trail.
When I saw them, I remembered back to a time you did a very bad thing
trying to get one at our house. Now, that said, you never, ever, EVER tried
to destroy or chew anything that you weren’t supposed to. Even as a pup!
But this one occasion, it was a squirrel that put you ‘over the edge’. You were
very much an adult when this happened too but if I recall correctly, you did
have four legs then, so could really
run fast! You chased that squirrel around
and around the garage, then thru the flower garden next to the house. Until
it finally scurried up INSIDE the corner of the house trim. I was in the house
watching you. And then, all of a sudden you started ripping apart the vinyl
sided corner of the house after that squirrel! Good thing I was watching you
and got you to stop!
I don’t know if that squirrel ever did come back out. I think he waited until
you came back in the house!
Just thought I’d show everyone how C-U-T-E you were as a pup…here’s a
great one. See, you didn’t even chew my boots as a pup! Missing you….
Today has been one of those days, Maggie, where you are in my thoughts a lot.
Someone shared this with me tonight….very fitting indeed:
Afterlife & A Loss For Words
I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep….
I could see that you were crying…you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear.
“It’s me, I haven’t left you…I’m well, I’m fine, I’m here.”
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea.
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you that I am not lying there.
I walked with you toward the house, as you fumbled for your key,
I gently put my paw on you. I smiled and said, “It’s me.”
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.
It’s possible for me to be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty, “I never went away.”
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew…
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over…I smile and watch you yawning
And say, “Goodnight, God bless, I’ll see you in the morning.”
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I’ll rush across to greet you and we will stand, side-by-side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out…then come home to be with me.
This winter has really been horribly cold…but I managed to clean out your trail of the grown up bushes from over the summer. Missed your help!!! Think of you so often when I walk on the trails, this being the first winter without you – I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got a sign to mark “your trail”…I think you’d agree, you look damn good on the sign.
I know you know, Maggie, but I miss you dearly…you were the BEST. I love you, Maggie, love you very much. I wish I could hold your paw and rub your soft ears…
…today would of been Maggie’s 14th birthday…
I still miss you soooo much.
When I walk Haley out where you are buried,
the wind chimes always seem to chime when I walk by,
I stop, say “hi Maggie”, shed a tear and keep walking…
The snow has melted enough around your “three” solar lights,
the sun charged them and even after dark, one was still glowing…
“Hello, Maggie… I love you.”
I finished cleaning the grown up bushes on your winter trail,
sure missed having your help cleaning the trails.
I so wished you had made it to the next milestone I had hoped for,
your 14th birthday.
But it was not meant to be…but I know you’re looking down on me,
I can see you young again, four healthy legs, playing with a stick…
Happy birthday Maggie….thinking of you today and always…
It’s been a while since I have blogged on your blog, Maggie. Today is a good day to do it. It has been snowing all day..and it’s really piling up after several days of it. This weather really makes me think of you… How tough winters were for you but yet you still did love the “white stuff” being of Northern breed descent(that’s a guess on my part!)
Ice was especially tough in the winter. HATED it when things would ice over. We are still making our snow sled trails in the yard…although have scaled back some now because you aren’t here with us.
The first time I go on our winter trails across the road today will not be the same without you. You LOVED those trails! Loved digging for frozen deer poop, loved helping me clean the trails with your great stick demolishing expertise and loved seeing and sniffing out winter wildlife.
I still miss you greatly….I suspect that will NEVER change…..
Missing you Maggie!